BEFORE I GREW UP

sigh)

before i grew up
and learned about life
i thought roses were fine
and i'd be a good wife.

but now that i'm grown
and sullied by time
those roses have thorns
and aren’t worth a dime.

it's a shame, in a way
for i tried very hard
to do the right thing
but drew the wrong card.

a re-deal's required
and i'm looking askance
not knowing for sure
if i'm ready to dance.

'cause here's why i'm skittish
and taken aback.
when will i know if
i'm on the right track?

Probably never.

(sigh)