WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE IF........

What my life would be like if I'd never gotten married:
I would never
have known the joys (and heartaches) of parenthood
have known the joys and heartaches of being a wife.

If we hadn't separated:
I would never
have known how wonderful the younger generation of men is
have smoked a joint (my first and last)
have started this blog
have changed my mindset
have appreciated those liberal views
have joined a gym
have seen a counselor
have found out what I want to be when I grow up.

I was always Chet's wife, Daren's and Shannon's mom; Cody's and Dusty's grandmom; the den mother; the PTA president; the staffing specialist. And it's taken me a long while to get to here, to have a CLUE who I am. Some of it I don't like, some of it I do. I'm working on the part I don't like, but there probably aren't enough years left to fix it all. The part of me that I think is okay could still stand improvement, but at least it's a positive. I just wish I had the energy to pursue those things that make me happy -- like opening a classy southern tea room in old town Fredericksburg amid all the Civil War history or having a writing career. This blog is the closest thing I'll ever get to that...lol... but it serves a purpose and props me up with creative thought.

Someday maybe I'll be a whole person.

(sigh)